You broke my heart. And you acted like somehow it was my fault, my misunderstanding, and I was too in love with you to ever be mad at you, so I just punished myself.

I think the worst feeling,
is being forgotten about,
by someone you will never forget.

But to be perfectly honest,
you're the only thing that i love,
And it scares me more and more everyday.

i really missed you tonight. i miss talking to you,
knowing that you get to me. and everytime i talk
to someone else, it just reminds me of how much they don't.

l felt like I had to get out of there because I might really care about you, and it scared me so much because that meant you could hurt me. And maybe I didn't feel ready to like someone that much.

THE WORLD NEEDS PEACE ♥

the last 2 days have been hell.

i've come to the realization that the people that i thought were my real friends arent.

i've also realized that you cant trust anyone.

boys are bitches.

and i just found out that my best friends have been lieing to me. about something serious.

i'm like crying. this sucks. i hate stupid things.

this is retarded.

i dont know what to do. should i still hang out w/them? or should i just forget all about them.

so maybe one day you'll realize why you
shouldn't have ignored me that night.

Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
that none of them have felt this way.

And even if we grow apart, and even if
we don’t talk as much two years from now,
just remember that I’ll always be here for you.

okay so tomorrow i am taking the prep admission test!!

ack!! i'm soo nervous i mean this is my last resort.

otherwise i'm gonna have to go to nwr again. and

i reallly hate that school. i hate most of the people

and i hate the teachers and the way they teach and treat

other students. so i'm just relaxing tonight and

watching a movie. "because i said so" its  a pretty good

movie!! but yea i havent hung out w/the guys lately

b/c everyone has been out of town and with this whole

test thingy my mom wont let me do anything but

study 24/7 so i'm glad i'll be getting the test over with so i

can actually socialize. well i'm gonna fisnish up the

movie and then go to bed.

<3 Victoria

so i've come to the realization

there is no such thing as best friends.

or maybe even true friends at that.

i wish i had a true friend

who wouldnt leave me in the dark.

who wouldnt talk bad about me

who wouldnt leave me out

who wouldnt break my heart.

i wish there was someone out there who was none of that.

someone who would do the risky

and keep my hopes up.

i guess i'll never know.

we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before.

i gave you my heart, that`s
all that i can give to you.
and if that`s not enough for you
then i`m not enough for you.